life of muffin.....

dd says (12:17 PM):

wat do u wan me to talk to u abt?

frozen.. says (12:17 PM):

if you really still care for that someone... you would talk things like "ho are you doin over at malaysia

How*

frozen.. says (12:18 PM):

how is working over there

getthing use to things?

have you eaten

There are so many things to talk about...!

dd says (12:18 PM):

to me its quite obvious that things are going well for u

so there's nothing much to ask abt

frozen.. says (12:18 PM):

wow

oh ok den..

dd says (12:22 PM):

i wun be fetching u from school

i got class outing on dat day

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frozen.. says (12:23 PM):

ok den.

anw

dd says (12:24 PM):

wat thing?

frozen.. says (12:24 PM):

FYI i was sick for 5 days.. and if you think you know that i was living here good.

frozen.. says (12:25 PM):

nvm forget about that

next time i goin to ask you is this.

since you got nothing to talk to me about

do you still want to carry on this whole thing

dd says (12:26 PM):

you know what..that's what i've been thinking abt

im just damn fucking sick of all these shit

frozen.. says (12:27 PM):

yea.. i am also abit ssick of your excuses...all your lazy to do this and that...

dd says (12:27 PM):

okie

since u're saying that

den lets just end it here

its enough

frozen.. says (12:27 PM):

at least i call our relationship a thing... not a shit

cool.

frozen.. says (12:28 PM):

will meet u one day to return things.

maybe 14 night

frozen.. says (12:29 PM):

ok for you..

?

dd says (12:29 PM):

not suer

cant conirm

frozen.. says (12:29 PM):

15 night

dd says (12:30 PM):

i cant confirm anything

frozen.. says (12:30 PM):

den at least confrim like now? since i am asking?

dd says (12:30 PM):

i cant confirm anything till im back in singapore

frozen.. says (12:33 PM):

ok then... hope we can still be friends...

 take care for nw..

**end**

And after that, there was no reply from my ex.... anw i was suppose to be frozen.. all i wanted was someone that is simple and caring.. guess if i cant get it from anyone.. i think i should jus remain single for now.

The night at my staff hostel given by them was... slightly below average.
Spiders everywhere...! Haha is like we are spider man's friends...

is a super small room, without any air con. To be able to fall asleep is an amazing thing. But, you will sleep all the way because of the poor fan and stuffy room. We choose not to open the window is because we didn’t want to have mosquitoes to get in. And the worst thing is that the place we are staying at doesn’t have an internet connect! Haha luckily, I was able to get over them. Think army do train ppl well..! Haha but those boys abit hard to get over with.

We had a hard time to settle our meals. They wanted cooked food, but I jus wanting to settle with bread, maggie or biscuit.
We manage to get our asses up and go to work today. And I can’t believe I sit in the office doing nothing from 0830 to 1730. Haha

but of cos we did do abit of planning of the things that we need to do... haa oh well... our day is ending...and there is work tmr! Faint!!!

it has been 3 hrs plus and we have yet to reach our "work place", the mushroom farm.

things wasn't so organise like what I expected. is bad, bad and very bad so far.
we are now at a stop to take a break. seem like another long way later.

suppose to be a Indian driver, let's call him no. 1. words from my teacher is that they are suppose to send us str8 to the farm. with out any change of transport. but when we cross the Malaysia custom and few kilometres later, we stop at one if they petrol station. there is his friend I think. Indian driver no. 2.

this time his van is a different one. more nicer compared to driver 1. no2 is quite friendly, but seem very cheeky to me also..

being the oldest in the group, I was asked to take care of the others. so I need to be extra careful for their safety too.

the only thing in mind now is to hope that we got a nice room, and there is Internet!!! haa think those are things that most ppl need when they are traveling. slave for technology.

end 1200 hrs

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Given the approval from my partner, this is what we have decided to do... 
i sounded off very bitchy, and piss.. 

the earlier part was he saying hi to me and asking what i did for the whole day.. and den i said something like..."Oh, so you remember that you got a bf"
and the story goes on...

(the reason why i have this posted is for use to know what really happen between us.. and at least we wont miss out anything if we said too fast when we are fury.. at least we can learn from it..)

It's no longer you or me, but us says (23:40):
the place i went to had no reception

let me share your pain too..now is not jus you and me.. is us.. says (23:41):

and before u go to the place without reception

did u text me and let me know ?

so i need to be like a fool to worry about you and dunno where you go ?

dd (23:41):

u shld noe im in china, and i haf different schedules n stuff.

dd (23:42):

nvm.

im too tired now

i haf no mood for this

dd (23:46):

if u think the wait is not worthwhile, or u think that i'm making u suffer by making u wait, let me noe.

me.. says (23:48):

i dun mind waiting if you tell me in advance

me.. says (23:49):

at least a sms to tell me that u are goin to some place quiet and no reception will be so much better

at least a peace of mind

but

instead

you leave without a reason

is the heart that matters.

me.. says (23:50):

and a being responsible.

dd (23:50):

i've told u right from the start im going to china

im not on a holiday trip where i haf my own sweet time to do my things n there's no one ard

there are 70 over other ppl

dd (23:51):

i had to leave at 6.30 yesterday morning..

i had 6hrs of bus ride

i climb so many mountains dat im fucking tired

i really dunno wat happened to u

u're not making things easier but harder forme

me.. says (23:57):

sorry was on the phone with jin..

me says (23:58):

anw, how long do u need to actually write a sms and informing me that u are goin on a trip?

dd (23:58):

ok, fine, its my fault

me says (23:59):

anw.. what ever excuses you said above was already predicted on my Live Journal.

me says (00:00):

everything you said was jus things you did.. but to me.. seriously sms dun need to take you few hrs.. jus less den 5mins to inform me that you are goin on a trip will be good enough.

me says (00:01):

there is nothing happened to me.. i jus feel down when my bf didnt even contact me for almost 2 days. over the weekend

dd (00:01):

and if my bf understand, he wun kick up such a big fuss.

me says (00:02):

so now u talking about understanding.. wow...

me (00:03):

so now i became the not understanding.. and who was the one not being responsible to at least inform??

the things that we always do

letting each other know where are we goin

me says (00:04):

isnt it something that we do when we are in SG?

and not u blame the whole thing to China

dd 00:04):

so tell me, what do you wan now?

me says (00:05):

i jus wan you to know how i feel...

and how much do u still wan me?

cos the feeling u gave me is fading...

where is the loving bf that i have?

me says (00:06):

from the start you were so nice and sweet.. now u seem to be too use to me doing most of the things

me says (00:07):

and u seem to wait for me to text you most of the time..

i told u before.

if u are over there

me says (00:08):

i dun need you to text me 24/7

jus at least once a day will be fine

you tell me you no time to sms? Cant you jus bring the phone in and sms me when u shit?

me says (00:09):

how about you tell me how you feel about me now?

dd (00:09):

i am very tired now

there's alot of things going on and alot i haf to settle

dd (00:10):

im trying to workthings out, but all i get is this shit from u

do u even noe that from wed until fri i didnt sleep much

do u noe that friday there's a blackout

things here isnt like Singapore

things happens n theres no way we can control or to make it better

dd (00:11):

i was on the bus from 1 till 9.30 den i had dinner

do u noe dat

me says (00:15):

wow.. didnt know when there is a blackout, your phone will be black out too.

you once told me abt priorities, and i tot putting you in my top list and care and think of you every now and den is what i need to do.. when you are in china, all the pain i have been suffering thinking of you is nothing to you? i have to go thru my test and think of you..

on sat, from more till nite time 9 plus den i had my first meal of the day

me says (00:16):

all becos i was thinking of you

and you were at china happily smoking and drinking till u fall sick

dd (00:17):

Alriht

very good. using all this against me

me says (00:18):

look above.. you also use all this kinda black out things to go against me also what

you want ppl to understand you

me says (00:19):

but have you understand me before you say it..?

dd (00:19):

i give up

do wat u wan

i just wan to finish up the rest of the 2 weeks n go back singapore

me says (00:20):

give up? give up on what?

dd (00:21):

i've got work to do

me says (00:21):

and you at least explain what you giving up on

dd (00:22):

i give up on explaining

think wat u wan

if u think i dun love u, den so be it, if u think im be unreasonable, so be it

im tired

im very sick of this nonsense

me says (00:23):

haha joke of the day..

nnow u tink is nonsense.. and i bet you still think you are right

why not i give you a better suggestion

dd (00:23):

Fuck

if u're so unhappy abt this

den just forget abt the whole thing

me says (00:27):

why not we jus freeze this relationship for the time being.. and since i need to go over to Malaysia, and i got my work to do.. and plus, if later there black out i also cannot talk to you.. and history will repeat again.

during this time, you can settle all ur unsettled things with out even need to have extra things to worry about.

on the 14, i will be back.. and if you will wan me back, or you

me says (00:29):

wan to distroy this relationship, you choose for urself.

wanting me back will be picking me up like what you said.

not wanting me back will be sms me and tell me that you dun wan me back. so i will go home myself. simple and easy for you.. giving you time to consider..

me (00:30):

ok with this suggestion?

It's no longer you or me, but us says (00:30):

ok

me says (00:31):

i will put this on my LJ, wont say you name.. at least if we look back, we know what we did before.. and we can know what we really want...and wont repeat this again.. ok for u ?

dd (00:32):

up to u

(i dun mean to be so bitchy.. is jus me when i am pissed.. seriously, what ever result you goin to give me on the 14 Oct, i will respect you...jus want you to know that i really love you and miss you alot...)

jus testing this application that I jus download from iTunes store.

why will this thing make me think so much again.. I tried to hack care. but I can't.

what's wrong with me?

I am feeling so down now. and yet I got no one to turn to. but thx est for being my listening ear. I need a get away from city..

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Recently gotten a job offered by my friend to help him rush for some things to be done. I have been struggling and trying to hit the quota given to me. Been tired rush from school to start work str8.
But thx to my darling that given me a helping hand these evening. I manage to move a bigger step closer to the quota.
Thx for being there when I need help. Despite that you dun have enough sleep the previous night. 
Love you always...